I am Notoriously Unreliable
|March 1, 2014||Posted by Michael Pape under All Projects, Pape Blog, Pape Projects, The Blog|
Hello everyone. It's been a while, and I am trying to decide what to write next, and also if the pen name of OJ Wolfsmasher should continue to write things or be taken out back and disposed of like yesterday's donut box.
Maybe it's the long cold winter. Maybe it's my run-on sentences. Maybe it's my determination to try and be happy. I don't know what's preventing me from deciding on a direction. It's kind of fun to be directionless, actually. Can anyone relate?
OJ is like Steven Seagal in that he is Hard to Kill. I love him and his rambunctious point of view so much, it would be painful to see him thrown away. I know one thing -- he is definitely going to finish his 50 Shades of Gray parody before he sheds this mortal coil. He owes the world that much. After he accomplishes that, I'm not sure what else there would be for him to say. In the description of the story, I wrote that Pretty Much Just One Shade of Brown represented an author rage-quitting his culture. I think that statement will prove accurate. I recently looked over my outline, and it is insane. Possibly literally so.
Long story short, I've been through a bunch of crap in the last ten years or so that I've only recently allowed myself to really dig into. It's hard. I'm not depressed, and I'm not angry about the past anymore, but good grief is it hard to express myself without suffering from PTSD about 100 things that I can't even believe happened. Sometime soon I'll do a post about being an INFJ personality type and what that means for my day-to-day existence. It is a trip, let me tell you.
This is not to say that my life is bad, or that I'm not writing. Michael Pape is writing a horror novella about garden gnomes, and is being hampered by indecision about what style the dialogue should have (first chapter has been rewritten about five times already). Did you know that nobody really has a clear idea on how to do dialogue in stories, and that people just kind of make up rules that sound good to them and then try to force them down other people's throats? This is one reason why writing books is a real pain. It's also why writing books for any target audience besides yourself is a bad idea. People will judge your book using their own personal standards. And those standards are always, at their core, dumb.